~ Dream World Lover ~
by S. Anne Gardner
I close my eyes and my senses are filled with visions of you. A body who but a moment ago was lifeless suddenly feels the vibrancy of a birth. Waves upon wave of sensations spread to erupt a hunger that knows no bounds; a crescendo without a beginning and fathomless in its end. I feel your breath upon my skin and tentatively my fingers reach out to touch you….fear spreads at the thought of the unreality and I pull back. If my fingers cannot touch you; my dream world with you will simply vanish…. and all that my soul will know is endless despair. "Touch me, fill me, be inside me…." I hear your voice beckoning….I close my eyes and I surrender.
My dream world… I live a life with you and for you in this realm of the unreal and the possible. Here I am lover, friend and antagonist…. I despair and my desire at times reaches for you and the reality of the present cuts me deeply and I bleed. Dream world lover that takes my solace and gives me life, death, hope and passion… I live in a dream world… and breathing is becoming impossible in my reality. I can no longer distinguish the real from the unreal. I give myself to you and I know that I am progressively leaving this life and my body rebels….my flesh is dying and my consciousness is all encompassing.
My lover, I reach out for you and you pull me in…. unceremoniously and nothing matters because I suddenly feels your arms around me and all else is lost to me. I leave this life of reality to live one with you in immortality…. in reality I die. What does the flesh matter if I have everlasting love with you. "Touch me, fill me, be inside me…."